I have been busy with a wonderful guy that has changed those grey clouds to all silver. I have never felt so calm, but after he walk into my life my dreams have been in the open and proven possible. There is promise in the human generation and I was put here to help those that can't help themselves. It took me pain and sorrow to get here because I needed to be reconstructed and built to realize that life isn't beautiful because of all we have but all we can do to make our fellow brothers and sisters happy and better off. Think about those that have never been hugged, loved or told that they were worth it. I was luck in the past although sometimes I wonder if the future can be so bright but one person has proved it to me. You know who you are. I have never felt love like this.

I have been working this semester to the bone, studying hard, writing many papers, getting ready for the future and of course my favorite two things, sleeping and eatting. I am currently working on a paper on the "IRA and the movement for peace", "Moscow's Promise", and "Médecins Sans Frontières". My education is almost to the end and decisions have been made, those of which I will keep close to my heart. Life is beautiful.

I struck out on a mission this year to find the beauty in the ugly and unwanted things. I have found that beauty and when my world came crashing down this year an angel came to my side to now show me that the one thing that I had missed was me. I was the one that I needed to have faith in and trust in. I found the beauty in myself now, and certain that regardless of how bad life gets that we always need to trust in ourselves and hold on, on day hope will float by and save us from the depths beneath. Thank you God for my angel and thank you all for being patient with my writing.

~Song for the Finding~

Love Soon

by John Mayer

I know you've been sworn

I read your complaint

you're needing someone older

and though i've been warned

to live day by day

there's something taken over

did you expect to kiss me one time

while lookin at me with the same eyes ever again

so come on and face it

so come on and face it

it's time that we say it

you can cross the line whenever you want to

i'm calling it love soon

close your mind and waste some time if you have to

i'm calling it love soon

it's not about you now, it's what we are

your mother complains that you need a man

you haven't mentioned me yet

and all of your friends

don't know who i am

i've been your best kept secret

i understand i wasn't part of the plan

a dollar short, a minute early

but i am your man

so come on and face it

so come on and face it

it's time that we say it

you can cross the line whenever you want to

i'm calling it love soon

close your mind and waste some time if you have to

i'm calling it love soon

it's not about you now, it's what we are

let's bypass the bullshit

and move on because the minute hand moves faster than you think it does

and by no fault of yours, and by no fault of mine

the bottom line is laying in the bed that we've been playing in tonight

we've been playing in tonight

i'm calling it love soon

i'm calling it love soon

you can cross the line whenever you want to

i'm calling it love soon

close your mind and waste some time if you have to

i'm calling it love soon