And this life that is disgusted needs many revises.

I want to can this beauty and sell it to someone who could use it.

My life a piece of distressed tapistry pulled and fragmented on a loom.

A half walk around a track and a car ride to a friends, and my life could be figured out.

Lone wanderer, reclining on my morals searching the canvas for the story it longs to tell.

The choices so clear but the zepher ate my fear.

One foot on the floor and the other will stay on the clear.

My heart bleeds because of the tragedy that strikes me this day of final intrigues.

It matters no more what I choose because you will hurt regardless.

Time after time, I will not ever be able to be fine.

Friendship to hurt and pain but I will try to reclaim that light in the five years past.

I am sorry for not being that boy you knew four years ago.

My heart changed and this life has been rearranged.

Kiss to the wind and death only remains.

Sometimes choices are so difficult and the ones we love are hurt. I find that in my time on this Earth that regardless of wanting to wade through calm water without disturbing the surface would be impossible. I have regreted the changes that needed to be. I will die in vain someday for being only one person with one heart. There have been so many beautiful people in my life that deserve wonderful people to share their life with. I always happen to not fit that picture regardless of whether I want to or not.