So it is Easter and I sit all alone in my apartment and wonder if my family is exchanging smiles across the dinner table. Talking about stories present and past.

My mom thinking of her little grand daughter, her crafts and of course about going back to work tomorrow (If I were rich I would tell my parents to take some money and do what they want with it including the retirement they have always dreamed of).

My dad thinking of his little grand daughter and how things work scientifically in a very down to earth explaination.

My grand mother thinking how great this holiday turned out, and the food that every one complimented her on.

My brother thinking of his garden, his daughter, and getting rid of the animals in his back yard woods.

My sister in law thinking about her daughter and how she would just like to get rid of the aunt L who seems to drive us all nuts.

My cousins thinking about the candy that they have, one of them thinking that I am still taken by the devil, and she is probably praying for me at this time.

My Aunt and Uncle thinking about that new house that they want me to come see, and the money that they think will make them happy. (Money isn't everything!)

Well you probably are wondering where I fit into this picture and where I use to fit into this picture. I was the artistic person in this family inheriting the gene from my mom. I use to be something else with my clarinet or singing. As a young child in this family everyone looked to me as the future of this family and were very proud of me. I wonder where I stand now. How they look at this boy becoming a gay man. Challenges await me in this crazy world and I am ready bring them on.

Easter a holiday I could skip. I don't like candy and would rather just get a dollar for the candy price rather then having candy at my finger tips. I am an odd person I know but I really am not a big fan of chocolate. But I am a fan of God and Jesus. The only reason I am still here in this world is because of them. Thank you for everything God.

~Here and Now for You~

One down a few to go. I am sorry for not posting a lot recently. I have been so busy with school and work. I hope you are having a wonderful time on Easter. I will be thinking of you. Take care

Je t'aime,

~Mr Sponteaity~